Victimised.. yet Living!

Guess I am victimised, donno either. I feel all down, no control over myself, just wanna leave everything aside and do nothing, but nothingness also corrodes me, what do I do? am I a victim of solitude? am I a confused soul? am I suffering from depression? am I thinking too much about life or not thinking at all, am I giving my best to what I am doing?

I wouldnt show this up in front of anyone, this is that “in-thing” thats going on within myself, where I am trying to fight the battle with my emotions, my feelings, my thoughts, my life. I am just trying to be good to myself and others.. but *Lost*…

I somewhere dont feel happy, content and satisfied.. am I missing something? Guess this is the first time I am moving away from life.. Thought I would be back to normal by myself  in a while, but that doesnt seem to happen..

Today, could’nt stop myself from putting up a little insight of what people who know me could’nt have thought of… 

What do I do.. Allah guide me, help me, I totally rely on You! Help me Allah!!

August’s first Sunday! :)

Guys, its the first Sunday of August today. So, whats so special abt this day?? Well, by now u must have understood what I am talking abt, our very own, ‘Friendships Day’! I always wanted to write a post on friendship and what else could be a better day than this day!

It must be a normal day for many and a special day for people who celebrate the essence of friendship. Many of us might say that every day/every minute/every second is for friendship, but we hardly get a chance to let our friends know their importance in our lives, we hardly express what they mean to us, we live life together, share every good or bad thing with them,  they know even all those little things that at times we dont share with our family members 😛 , we seek their advice, laugh with them, their support is always what we need, they are always there to care for us, they let us know of our shortcomings, they make us feel like a star when we do something good, friends can speak our mind, they know our heart, our mood, what makes us happy, what lets us down, what we are crazy about, our likes/dislikes, they know our secrets, our mischieves, they accept us the way we are and make us feel special in every way possible, they have every right to tease/scold/beat/pamper us, they make fun of us and we together make fun of others 😀 , we laugh at each other, hang out, with full rights we can disturb them anytime 24*7 😛 , give a missed call/msg, u’ll get an immediate reply without fail 🙂 . We always feel comfortable in their presence, probably because we always look for somebody who can stand by our side, who understands the meaning of our silence…

Sooo special friends are for us, coz we have chosen them by our choice, so here’s the day to take out time specially for all our friends. No matter what you do, a message, a card, a flower, a call, a surprise, you are successful if it gets a cute smile on your friends face. A friend will never expect anything in return neither will he/she ask you to do things that makes him/her happy. It all depends on us, how better we understand them and what best we can do to make them feel special, to make them feel happy, to strengthen the bond of friendship!!

It just takes a minute or two, so go ahead and make ur pal feel the luckiest, not neccessarily only on this day, anytime, anyday, aft’all u can disturb them anytime 24*7 😛 .

Outing on a Weekday!

The pleasure of freaking out on a weekday from office is a treat in itself, and we were lucky enuff to make most of 31st July, 2009 which was a friday. Yes! we had been to the resort “Songs of Earth” (Sounds exciting ryt??) Yes it is!. This is a perfect place for all the folks who love/admire nature, who prefer calmness/solitude around and this was one of the reasons I decided to go instead of spending the day home (Ofcourse my pals made sure I went there 🙂 ). Ahh.. am I promoting the resort?? Ya could be, coz its worth a visit. Atleast when I came back from there, I was a relaxed soul!!

That day I entered office at 10:45 with a ‘new avatar’. Nobody could actually recognise me and thought I was a new joinee :P..all those different reactions from my colleagues were worth capturing and I bagged cool compliments too :). 

We (around 30 people) started from office at like 11:20’ish and reached the place at 12:50. Antakshari on the way was a nice way to hear all those songs I never heard :P. The first thing we did was ‘Pet pooja’, with our tummies full, we headed for Commando Net, Burma Bridge, Artificial rock climbing, Cycling, Zorbing…Crossing the bridge via the rope was a little scary but an amazing experience for me! I did try commando net but was a little slow coz I was cautious abt my dress :P. Cycling was something I loved the most and spent most of the time on it when my colleagues were playing golf and cricket, but sad thing 😦 I couldnt beat my team mate Santosh in the cycle race (Neva mind, next time I will win :P).

Zorbing was a total adventure, we had to sit in a ball filled with air with safety belts tied around our body. When the ball started rolling, Me and Bharthi screamed to the best we could, and when the ball just completed 2 rolls, the belts around my legs came out and they were almost hitting bharthi’s face. One of the helper stopped the ball, tied the belt around my legs and started rolling the ball again. This time the ball was moving in the backward direction and was a li’l difficult to adjust to its rythm, but surely it was an ‘Experience’ and would love to do it again!

By then it was already 5:30 and we had to pack up, so we had few snacks (I actually dint, coz they were tooo oily ewww!!), cycled a little, went to the Rose garden and were back in the bus to get back home!

I would say, this was the the best of all the outings I had coz I lived my heart that day 🙂 . Truly enjoyed and got a chance to know more about my team mates! 🙂

Peo’puls’ English!! =))

Hahaa..Yes I am actually laughing!

A Quick question: Did u guys ever laugh when people pronounce some of the english words incorrectly? or when they use improper tense for a word?

Well..for me atleast, it gets tough to hold my laughing hormones when I come across such a situation..

Words that dont exist and i get to hear often —  “draw’ed”, “hurted” , these 2 are the only ones i remember for now..I really wonder if people who use them even realise that they are discovering new words 😛

It actually is more rib-tickling to see people pronouncing words differently(or should i say incorrectly), Machine pronounced as ‘Mission’ and Example as ‘Exampul’ (any word that ends with ‘le’ is traditionally pronounced as ‘ul’)..this really sounds funny to me..m Lol’ing badly =))

Is it so very obvious that it goes unnoticed by the speaker and listener or is it only souls like me who get the pleasure of laughing for such things 😛 (usually in front of the person who talks, and rarely after the talk is over..) 

Will update the post when I come across more such peo’puls’ 😛

Thats how the Title of the post perfectly fits in 😀

Hello Happiness!!!

It has been so many days I was thinking of penning down my thoughts on Blogosphere. I kept thinking, thinking of the address of my blog, thinking of the ‘topic’ for my first post, thinking whether I would get time to give time to my blog, thinking that my ‘first’ in this world should be Special, should be different, should be something anyone could relate to.

Well, here’s a break to my ‘Thinking Nerves’ :).

This post and the following posts after this are really special to me and is specially dedicated for all my Pals who hold a special place in my Life.

Source of the Post: A Movie ‘Happy Days'(a Telugu movie 😛 referred to me by my Non-telugu friend) which inspired me so much that i couldnt help but be here.

For those of U who havent seen the flick: The movie explains everything a student goes through in college life, starting from the ‘first day’ in college to the first of friends, first ‘being ragged’ to ‘I ragged’ experience, first treat in goody goody restaurants, first crush, first affair, so many ‘firsts’..in Short it describes ‘Hello happiness’ to ‘Bye happiness’ story.

Thats my story of happiness below from September 2003 to May 2004:

I still remember the first day in college (September 08, 2003) when I went with my Big Bro and Mom. I was nervous, tensed, anxious, worried (and all possible synonyms of these words anyone could think of :P) basically because ‘Mechanical engineering’ was something I got by Chance, not by Choice. We first attended the Induction program, where I was relieved to see 2 of my 10+2 friends in the crowd. As usual there were too many so called ‘speeches’ by my professors and not to forget, we managed to have some ‘free’ snacks too :). After this we went to our classroom where I met two of my most amazing friends now (Pree n Shi). Everybody in the class were with their parents. We just did the formal ‘Hi-how r u-which college’ stuff. Neither of us knew we would be ‘Friends for Life’. We then followed our Ma’m to see all the Labs, we got 100’s of instructions from her and then we were back home. It was a perfect Kick-Off day.

The next day was a holiday (I was more than happy, maybe 5 month break was still not enuff for me :D). leaving home at 7:45 A.M in the morning with lunch Box/water bottle, ya notebooks ofcourse 😛 and coming back at 5 P.M was the daily routine. Me and ‘Shi..’ used to sit together on the First bench. I know she dint like sitting there initially, but she did. Preee.. used to sit with Rukku behind our bench (This is how we sat for the coming 3 years as well). First month in college, we used to talk formally, have lunch together and rush home after 3:50. I remember our second Engineering drawing class when each of us brought drafters, drawing sheets, I specially had a big box with all the drawing equipments which I have never used till now except for that day :P. Classes-Notes-Studies-Internal exams, it was just that (One secret here..we flunked in the first internal of C/C++..Sshhh :D). 2 hours in English lab every tuesday used to be amazing (especially the movie Die hard and Mummy Returns), Physics lab was always what we hated (for the reason both of u knw, (remember Zammy..??!!:P)), chemistry lab was fun, ABC of C/C++ took time to enter our minds, carpentry, plumbing, forging, welding was always of ‘our types’, after all, we were to be the future Mechanical
Engineers. Days passed, we exchanged our phone numbers (landline ofcourse) and messenger ID’s (I remember Shi made my first yahoo ID, I also remember the password u had kept, naughty U :P), Months passed, we started sharing gifts on birthdays, calling at 12:00 A.M on our birthdays was a must. I always made sure that on every birthday, I wished both of them differently but ended up giving soft toys as a gift each time (coz that is what I tend to pick when I am in a gift shop). Chutneys beside our college was our favourite spot for treats. Special mention of chutneys Dahi and Asli Ghee..Ummm..I still love it!

Giving nick names to people was always in our blood, I can never forget ‘White Cockroach’, ‘Red ball’ and ‘Paan wala’ Lol.. (These are just the few ;-))

Shi and me used to laugh like anything for any silly reason, I would say it was contagious, both of us would burst out if one initiates…(ROTFL =))..people who know us would say ‘you are the same even now’. We would take almost 30 mins to walk from our college to Panjagutta crossroads, we became famous for our speed of walking. Sometimes, people on the road would say us ‘side se chalo’ or ‘jaldi chalo’ but that hardly mattered and it actually gave us another reason to Laugh (hehee..). We were just ‘US’. Chit chat, laugh, tease each other, make fun of others (at times :P), pass comments, having spring rolls while walking was all those 30 mins would comprise of. We were happy, enjoying our lives, living it to the fullest free from worries and tension. We werent that close to each other that time, we knew nothing about our past, we were just living life as it was. Few of our class boys were also good friends to us.

Bunking classes in our dictionary meant  ‘committing a crime’ and we never did this atleast for the first 2 years :P. Because of us, our classmates were also forced to attend all the classes. Slowly we started becoming the ‘Teachers Pets’. It was a nice feeling coz they had this ‘yeh ladkiyan achcha padhti hai’ type impression. Then came the end of the year where everybody would turn to me and Pree for notes, pree’s notes were famous for neatness and my notes were a little cost savvy when people had to take bulk xerox (ant sized hand writing I should tell U :P). We would give notes to people and get chocolates in return 🙂 (Though, I was not a chocoholic like Pree and Shi)

Exam season had everything from writing records to attending practical exams, to reaching CBIT on time, to taking tons of additional sheets while writing the exam, to coming out of the hall with a sad face and saying ‘I dint write well, I’ll flunk’ (How true?!! :D) to getting back home in scorching heat in those black autos. 

Last day of exam meant we would return home late and finish up with somebodys pending treat. Shi’s treat at ‘Elixir’ was a flop, Pree took an icecream called ‘Titanic’, i and Shi took something else, we somehow couldnt complete eating it and ended up mixing all the ice creams that looked like a wierd paste, this was a reason enuff for us to laugh again. Summer holidays were amazing at home! I was busy planning for my Maama’s marriage.. 

We were proud to be ‘seniors’ in second year. I always had a feeling that I would flunk in C/C++ again but Yes! We passed with flying colors. Mine was 83%, third topper in the class.

Well, with this post I have tried to show the initial traces of our friendship and how we were in the first year. Second post after this would be about our Lives from 2nd year onwards and how the ‘happiness’ in our lives grew each day…    

 Hope this wasnt boring, Comments/Compliments are welcome! 🙂